Robx - your post WAS inspiring. If I hadn't given everything in me for almost 3 years, it would probably inspire me.
But, at some point, there is a balance between reality and hope. I'm the most optimistic person you'll ever meet - glass COMPLETELY full kind of guy. But, I'm dragging my kids through an affair now.
They know I love W, W knows I love her - they know what I've done, and who I've become. If W is going to reject that, then I don't need to be with her, and my kids need to know the boundaries as well.
Spiritually, I have given God COMPLETE permission over my life. So, I'm going to move forward in a reasonable, normal manner, and if God stops me at any point, I will slam the brakes like nobody's business!
Thanks so much everyone for checking on me!
JD - I am new to this forum, but feel like I know your situation all to well. I agree that Robx has a great post and like you am trying to find the balance between reality and hope... I think you said that very well. As for your kids (and mine) someone recently told me that "your kids will NEVER forget how you treated them though this hard time" "They see your efforts and know YOU did all you could to protect them".
You and your story give me hope that regardless of my own outcome I will be a better person and the BEST father to my children. JD - Thank you for your story and the strength to share. God Speed! And keep moving forward.
Me - 35 W - 32 (EA with OM) M - 13 1/2 D - 11 S - 9 ILYBNILWY - January 2009 Status - Limbo
