So yesterday I walked into the kitchen and my W was there leaning against the counter. She called me over, wrapped her arms around me and gave me a long passionate kiss. She then looked in my eyes and said "I'm sorry and I love you". Then I woke up and realized it had merely been a dream \:\( :(. Talk about being disappointed - it felt so real and I felt so relieved inside until I realized I was dreaming. Then nothing but sadness engulfed me.

In reality she remains emotionally distant to me. Which does not bother me as much as it used to. Not sure if that is because I am just used to it now or if it's because I am detaching from her as well. Probably a combination of both. It's certainly not the best of situations, however we do not argue or create stress for the kids and I figure at this point, every week that my girls have their entire family living together, without drama, is a good week for them - even if it's not for me.

S4H