Another part I struggle with is how everything points to her wanting us together, but at the same time, not being willing to do what's necessary for us to have a chance. And I don't know if it's the A messing with her head or it's mentapause and her hormones are a ragin or a combo of both.
Don't discount pure old-fashioned stubbornness, and an inability to come to the mature conclusion that what she risked was all for nothing.
She seems to be at some sort of internal crossroads. Now not even her weekends are free of the moods.
