Ali, can you replace the word "hard" with "fear" and then try to explain or put words to those fears. Like are you afraid of losing him---then you can rationalise that fear. Pushing him away Making him make/reach a decision etc etc.
Would the person he loved, the old you that is now you again have been spontanious (sp) or cautious. I think she wore her heart on her sleeve and shared it with the world. Like Rob said you have zero to lose.
Perfect naej, just perfect!!! Ali, you chicken sh!t!!! Grow some b@lls and have some fun with him.... Enough with crying.PLllllease! K