Trusting - my heart says he did - and says he doesn't now.. it also says he isn't even close to being the man i thought he was. (as you have said about ur x THOUGHT)
soconfused..thank you for the kind words.
I am at the point in my life, counseling etc that I am working on me - the things within me that are deeply rooted and it is harder to work on those then myself. I WONT run from it but it is hard...and believing and accepting God's love for ME has been #1 hardest --- as i said before long drawn out stuff...and I want healing so I can be healthy.
4 women- yes SHOULD tell a person something. How about this.. In the official 2 years since he has been gone.. 1 - long term (1 year) girlfriend 2 or 3 additional girlfriends 3 apartment moves 4 jobs 1 suicide attempt no real money lots of debt many many many lies..
----------------and I still feel like I lost out! Oy! if I were a friend of mine I would slap myself silly.
thank you for everythign
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
