Swimming upstream...PH #7

[pearlharbr]

Interesting thing happened tonight. I was looking out at the falling snow and just wanted to curl up on the sofa with xBF and watch a movie. I actually had the urge to call and see what he was doing. It passed in about 30 seconds, but still, it was there. Does it mean anything or just a flash of nostalgia? Who knows. But it is the first time I have even thought about doing something with xBF in a few months.

I've been listening to Michael Buble a lot recently. He sings a Leonard Cohen song called "I'm Your Man" that pretty much sums it up for me:

If you want a lover
I'll do anything you ask me to
And if you want another kind of love
I'll wear a mask for you
If you want a partner
Take my hand
Or if you want to strike me down in anger
Here I stand
I'm your man

If you want a boxer
I will step into the ring for you
And if you want a doctor
I'll examine every inch of you
If you want a driver
Climb inside
Or if you want to take me for a ride
You know you can
I'm your man

Ah, the moons too bright
The chains too tight
The beast won't go to sleep
I've been running through these promises to you
That I made and I could not keep
Ah but a man never got a woman back
Not by begging on his knees
Or I'd crawl to you baby
And I'd fall at your feet
And I'd howl at your beauty
Like a dog in heat
And I'd claw at your heart
And I'd tear at your sheet
I'd say please, please
I'm your man

And if you've got to sleep
A moment on the road
I will steer for you
And if you want to work the street alone
I'll disappear for you
If you want a father for your child
Or only want to walk with me a while
Across the sand
I'm your man

If you want a lover
I'll do anything you ask me to
And if you want another kind of love
I'll wear a mask for you