Well, we had our "talk" about how the previous couselling session went on Friday afternoon. Needless to say, it went as I feared it would. She essentially took all of the challenging and negative comments that the counselor said to build a case about why she thinks that we won't be able to work things out. Additionally, she said that she doesn't know if she wants to try and work anything out with me. The counsellor acknowledged that we have some significant challenges to work through. The analogy that he used was by asking my wife if she could run a marathon (she is a runner). She responded by saying that it would take dedication and training. The counsellor responded by saying that our marriage will take the same if we want it to succeed.
Undoubtedly, this is the hardest thing that I have gone through. I have spent half of my life with this person and have never heard or seen her in this state. She has always been the optimistic upbeat one.
As far as the weekend went. After the bad call with the wife on Friday, I went to the lake with my brother. Even with the down moments, I had a good time. I got a good 3 hour workout in the gym tonight to burn off some of the anxiety and swirling thoughts. I haven't texted, emailed or called her since Friday. Our next contact will likely be on Wednesday night at our next marriage counselling session (if she shows).
One other thing that I did was her removed as an authorized user on my two credit cards. I didn't talk to her about doing this, because I am trying to have as little contact as possible. I hope that this doesn't make her angry or push her further away, but I was concerned that I needed to protect myself.
M 30 WAW 29 T 15 M 5 ILYBNILWY 3/8/09 Separated 3/14/09
