It does feel selfish, but knowledge is power... I'll try to find a L asap. Thx.
I had a super good day today! I was going to go ski, but decided to take care of some personal biz instead. Texted H re: some cabin stuff since he's still up at our family cabin, and think I sounded cheerful but detached. He responded favorable and will take care of the water meter stuff. I went to big D (Denver) to watch my S17 win their basketball tourney, and then the strangest thing happened...
I had apologized to my XH#1 yesterday b/c I have realized during this current S how much my actions during my first M hurt my XH. I just wanted him to know how sorry I was for hurting him. He was really cool about it yesterday, and today he and his W invited me to dinner and dessert tonight after the games. They were so gracious, and we celebrated my D16's 16th bday together.
I think it's a great example of how couples that D can bury the hatchet and rise above it all. I feel like I'm really growing as a person through this S. Mending fences and offering apologies where I need to. The main person I want to apologize to and work on a better future with is my H, but until he's ready to talk to me about any of that, I see this an an opportunity to get myself straight and strengthen relationships. My kids seemed really happy to have me over at XH's and that we could celebrate without worrying about who's night it was or who's year it was to have the BD. Pretty incredible IMHO.
