HELP! Is ML to try to reconnect a mistake?

[trampledheart]

Thank you for reading my post...

I bought DB and DR over a year ago and read some parts of each, but so much had been going on that I just never got around to finishing them. I also felt that my situation was just so difficult, that so much pain and damage had been done, my family and friends tell me that I should just get a divorce...

He doesn't feel that our home is his home. He lies constantly, kept everything a secret, never gave us a chance. I tried to get him to go to a MC but he didn't want to go and made excuses over and over till I just gave up. He was never interested in saving our marriage. He's living with OW who is almost 20 years younger than me, that he met through work. He wants me to move on...