((((Amy)))) Anger is a very natural part of this - if you didn't have any, you'd either be a saint or basically not have loved your husband at all, ever.
David was a man after "God's own heart" and in how many Psalms did he yell at God, plead with him, ask Him why he was letting him go through this, tell God he had deserted him, and so on.
Something I did the other day "saved" me - I told God that I was going to give my W, my marriage, my relationship, my kids, and everything else completely over to him - and I 'looked Him in the eye' and basically said this:
"I am throwing myself completely and utterly on your grace in faith - so you BETTER come through for me."
Haven't looked back since! I get sad and stuff occasionally still, but it's different now...
