Matilda, I did go dancing this weekend. It has such a transforming effect, like Clark Kent into Superman. I can't believe I'm the same person on the dance floor. I'm getting more skilled and confident, and less inhibited. I joined my Tuesday night group this weekend at an event with live music.
My W left for the weekend early Friday evening with the OP. He said to me "have a nice weekend" as they left.
I met with my IC this past week. He says that I'm the one who will move the R forward by setting boundaries and stopping the dance of verbal abuse from my W. This will test the R, and we will see if she acknowledges her issues, and is willing to put an effort into working on herself. He says that I need to focus on my own happiness at this time. He also says that I have to be willing to lose the M, in order for it to have a possibility to reinvent itself.
I went to a creative nonfiction writing workshop this weekend. It was fascinating, and will serve as a catalyst with my own writing. The focus was mainly on writing memoir, though it applies to personal essays (my focus). I listened to a journalist talk about the choosing the right structure for your story, an English professor talk about doing historical research on your hometown and childhood to better understand the context of your life, and another professor talk about the line between fiction and nonfiction, and when memoir becomes fiction.
My W and I have brief encounters that are pleasant, but with no R talk. She talks about in general about making needed changes in her life. I think she's planning on getting a FT job this year.
The only connection she seems to have in her life is the OP. She is distant from her family, except mother. Her sister had a baby two months ago, and she hasn't even visited her yet.
I seem to be settling into my situation better this week.
I continue to do the PT cooking job. My W shows up late Sunday afternoon, to help pack the food. I then deliver it. She is often gone again, when I return from the delivery.
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
