Most Difficult Time of My Life

[antlers]

We are the triggers for their pain and anger...the bad stuff they feel from their marriages to us. I'm gonna try harder to detatch, whatever that is, and get stronger...mentally, physically, and spiritually. I miss my wife, and it's hard to just 'leave her alone', but I know that I have to do it. It's hard to do the exact opposite of what your heart is telling you to do. She hates me right now, and says her feelings towards me are getting worse and worse. I hope that it's just her reaching a point where she is starting to verbalize it and really 'feel' it. One of these smart ladies on this board said it's like an abscess that needs to be lanced...once it is...the pus has to drain out for a while before the healing can start taking place. I hope there are still some emotions there for me besides just hate...she sure is angry and hateful towards me. She has reason to be...but it's still hard to understand and grasp. I hope and pray for a reinvention of my marriage. I know it will, take a long time for it to happen...if it ever does. God willing, and me being strong and disciplined enough, I hope it happens.