Rough and Ugly Four Months going on LIfe

[pearlharbr]

Kenn, not sure if you'll check in while in Orlando...Hope you're having/had fun!

I don't think you're weak at all, not for a second. Confused, yes. But everyone gets confused. So stop beating yourself up.

I have gone through and continue to go through the same confusion, wondering why I am going to give xBF another chance. Honestly, I would be perfectly happy to walk away right now. I don't have any feelings for him and feel confident in my plans for the future without him.

When I started here, I just wanted xBF to give us the chance to see if we could work things out or if we would be better off apart. And I wanted to know that I did everything possible to save the R before walking away with my head held high.

If I walk away now I will be happy but I will know that I didn't do everything. So I will try. And I'm afraid he will end up hurting me again, something I never want to go through. But in trying to not make choices out of fear I have to take that out of the equation and move forward anyway.

Take a break from thinking and worrying about your sitch. Hopefully you can do that on your trip with D.