Still getting nowhere fast....

[lost-n-Iowa]

I agree with everything that has been posted lately. Thanks for the posts. I have started implementing a 'get out quick' plan. I have car keys elsewhere, and a few other items. Plus I have a friend in another state (which is only an hour from me) that is helping to keep money for me. My H has no ides where she lives or how to even get a hold of her so that is why I chose her. I have a few books that I have been reading about marriages and some have things in them about abuse but they don't seem to cover the issues that I have. I will have to check into getting some of the books that you have suggested, Bridgestone. I have been checking around also about support groups in my area and so far I have not found one that is fits my needs. Maybe if I can get through all of this I will start one of my own!!

They have all suggested seeing a marriage councelor or divorce or staying with family. So far the MC is about the only route to try to save this marriage. I don't think my H would willing go to it but I can always do it on my own with out him.

I worry all the time about what little ears and eyes hear and see in the house. I try to think of that when my H and I are arguing. I know that they see me upset, and that they see me sad and they have to know what it is from. They may need counceling too if it keeps going on like this.

My H showed some of his true colors and controlling ways tonight on the phone. He wanted me to say sorry about something that I said to him almost two months ago. So I said "I am sorry for saying that." Yes my exact words. He then said that I needed to say exactly what I was sorry about. So we got into it about the fact that my apology was not good enough. I finally said that I would repeat word for word what he wanted me to say so that I could get it right. He said and I was repeating it word for word until the last word..."I am sorry for not swallowing". I did not say the last word instead I was dumbfounded and asked what the hell that had to do with anything. he said that he always thought that I should apologize for not doing that. I then got upset and said that he needed to grow up and that I was suppose to be apologizing for what I had said before. he then said that there was one more thing that he wanted me to say sorry for first and did I want to try again. I said no and hung up.

Is this as crazy as I think it is? I asked him if he knew any other man that called his wife the things that he has called me and he said yes that other men where just like him and called thier wives the names that they, the wives, were acting like. My next ?'s went back to back...When was I acting like a n***er f**king whore and how many are still married to that wife? He did not have an answer. Chalk one up for me......