Beyond Surviving- Living Life Again

[Loving_Life]

Thanks LWB for your post, yes it did seem surreal. I was on the phone long distance for the proceeding, (which was very nice and easy for me thanks to my L who was there representing me) so it seemed even more surreal. For some reason, the 'is this marriage irretreviably broken' part replays in my head off and on. I am getting better day by day forgetting it though. X's "yes" sounded so bitter, gruff, and void of feeling. I guess that's what it's supposed to be like during a D. I don't think I'll ever really understand x's mental state or mental process to rationalize this D, other than to know that he has troubles. The troubled person, yes, I am better without....

My life is moving on- got a job offer and will hopefully get my own place soon. That will be so amazing for me after several months living w. relatives. I think I will finally be SO much better very soon when I have my own place and $$ again.