Our reconcillation was wonderful. He was a perfect husband, he really tried, but in the end, it wasn't enough for me. I couldn't do it. I didn't look at him the same, I had to fight with myself every single day not to think about it. It consummed me and I just had to go for my own peace of mind. Now, I think I made the right decision, because deep down, now that I know he's back with her, I'm not sure his affair was ever really over. Even though he swears to it. Get this, he told me I gave him permission to go back to her that I even suggested it. Are you kidding me? He's putting it on my shoulders as to why he's back with her? What a sad man he turned out to be. He really disappointed me.
For you, if you can let go and forgive, then for heaven sakes - STAY. It is awful being alone. I absolutely hate it! And, its been 15 months now and time doesn't seem to help me. I guess I'm still bitter and hurt. Don't turn out like me. It was really easy for me to leave, we were only married a year when he started his affair, no kids, nothing together to keep us together.
