It's Complicated! Part 5

[glamgirl]

Trying to get a grip on my own life these days. Doing lots of spring cleaning.

My h is off once again in the deep dark tunnel. Hardly surfaces at all. Blew off his Dr appointment. Blew off his chiropractic appointment. No notice to the Dr, 45 min to the chiro.

I am sure he is not trying to be disrespectful, but I view him as disrespectul and rude. He wants and commands respect, but can't even give that to professionals. So I know it's just not me, but it's all of those he touches in his life. This was not my h throughout our M, but guess this is who he is now.

He did make it over yesterday. That was the first day since Sunday. I had to work a little late, and of course he complained. I almost lost it at that point. Give me a break, I take very good care of our children and all he could say was that's too late to come home, can't you work from home. I just shook my head and can't even fathom his thoughts right now. Oh too bad h, you HAD to spend an hour and a half longer with our children in our home. My gosh you might get a disease if you stay too long.

When he left he said I am going to sleep all day on Friday. Hmmmmm I just can't take what and who he is now. So as you can see nothing to report, but more depression and the deep dark tunnel.

It's not ok for h's behavior, but I am just focused on myself, my home and our wonderful children.

Thanks everyone for stopping by, this can get discouraging. I am keeping up with my workouts Upside. I think I am going to start boxing a punching bag and take out all that agression I have inside instead of unleashing it to h.

It's sad though my h doesn't want to share his life with me. If he would open up and communicate there wouldn't be these big blow-ups and disrespect if he simply would call and say Glam this is what I am doing. I don't expect you to understand, but this is what I need to do. This is in relation to something that happened with his work mess. He really blind sideded me and left me in the dark. He had a plan when he left on Sunday and then changed that plan midstream and then didn't bother to inform me.

I guess I am not that important, just somebody he stops in to visit now and then and calls on occasion.