I am doing better today. I have done a lot of reading regarding affairs and married people. It makes me realize how wrapped up they are, how selfish they are, and its extremely unlikely this type of relationship could last. I find comfort in believing that this was the start to everything 'wrong' in our relationship. I remember hearing 'we are too different', 'we dont have enough in common', 'we dont communcate', 'were not best friends' those types of things. Then when w and I talked the other day, those were all the positives in OM...So to me, everything and every excuse she had that our 'marriage was terrible', I find false because she had this OM on her mind. I wasnt perfect, he was, so everything about me had to be wrong.
So...knowing this is very unlikely to fail, I really expect her to crash and burn big time. when that happens, will she realize her mistake and the damage she caused? I dont know. My hunch is she will. Would I take her back if she came asking? I dont know that either. I feel crazy because my hunch is yes, with certain circumstances. I certainly dont want to go through this again. So..I guess i'm looking at this with some sort of optimism as weird as that can be.
