WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 6

[confusedinpa]

After I got ready for work, I went downstairs. I gave the boys hugs/kisses good morning. My wife was in the bathroom. Her time of the month was coming up, I know bad timing for these discussions, and she drank prune juice last nite for other issues.

When she got out, she joked about not going in there as the prune juice kicked in. I was standing close to her and had touched her side lightly as I tried to be sympathetic as I knew her stomach was bothering her. She pressed up against me and asked me to crack her back so I did. I broke away as she turned her check for a kiss. I gave her a light peck.

I kept a positive, upbeat attitude and we chatted about non-relationship issues like there was no issues with our marriage.

Tonite, I'm going have dinner with just the boys as she is suppose to go shopping for bunkbeds for her apt. I don't think she realizes that it hurts me everytime she talks about her apt. I do know that she's spent the last 2 days cleaning it and moving some stuff in (mostly the stuff she had bought while I was in CT). I hurts to think about.

At least I have a dinner with just the boys tonite to look forward to.

One thing that I have been wondering about is why she has only told her mom that she is likely moving out soon. Why didn't she say she filed already? I suspect to maintain her victim attitude that she is still trying to do everything possible to save the marriage but needs space to escape the mean husband to figure it all out.

The journey continues.....