Dropping the rope

[peacetoday]

K
its funny you brought up forgiveness
Ive been thinking about that a lot
I know it is my next move in this MLC world

H and I are working together as my brother is out of town
so there has been contact plus I choose to reopen the door a drop b/c I cant take the chance H will not show up for work
It is Crazy but
H seems more stable when I talk to him ( when I am not dim)
so I have this dilemma
any advice appresiated
1) allow for a alight friendship work on forgiveness ands move on

2) ( ive been dim for 3 months)
stay dim, move on, and hope for the best ( H is very erratic and with me being unavailable, I feel H reacts by not showing up to work at times, being more angry, and not seeing kids
Is it worth it?
I think I can move on and still allow for a small (very)small friendship
the only thing that stops me is this:
Im aware that by being available H will not feel the LOss of our R
so if I dont go dim are my chances of H returning lower??
or at this 2 year point does it matter anymore??

also I have another dileema
I met this man dancing..I know ..Im D 2 weeks now
Hes a great dancer and all the attention
im in trouble
He is nice but im not ready to even consider this and he asked me out tonght
suddenly, I feel what the MLCer goes thru
the excitement of the new
flame
and the pull to try it
I dont know what to do b/c it is so much fun to dance with him
feel like in in HS
Peace
peace