Just missing you guys a little!

[Amy M]

And, just when things seem to be getting better again...

Tonight when we said our prayers before bed, little man says, "And I want to ask God to bring my daddy home." WHOA! I was totally unprepared for that! S7 says, "S3, Dad's not coming home so don't ask for that. And, quit whining." So, I say, "S3, Dad loves you very much, and you will get to see him tomorrow after school." Then, S3 says, "I think my dad is missing us." I say, "Yes. He is...very much." And, S7 says, "He's not missing you, Mom." I smile and say, "Probably not." So, then S7 says, "Do you miss him, Mom?" And, I smile again and say, "Actually, I do miss having your dad live with us. But, we have had lots of fun without him too and we will continue to have lots of fun."

Then, S3 wants to call him. Since I don't know where H is, but I have a pretty good idea who he's with, I say, "Let's not call. Let's send him a text message instead." So, S3 types a message...that I interpret for H to say, "Daddy, I love you." And, then S7 sends him a message that says, "I love you, Dad. You are the best dad in the whole world." And, I'm thinking...not...the best dad wouldn't have left us! So, H does send TM's back to both boys saying he misses them, loves them, and that he "has the best 2 boys in the whole world."

And, now, I'm sad and mad again! How can this be the best thing for my children, and, how in the world can H be so blind that he honestly believes it is??????

Oh well! We've been through that before, I guess. God knows where my heart is and He knows where H's heart is too. And, if God sees fit one day, He'll send him back. But, I feel certain that God doesn't intend to do that right now. So, I'm going on with my life.

H did agree to sign the promissory note. And, since I have to be out of town on Tuesday morning, we have split appts. with the attorney. H will go on Monday. I'll go on Tuesday afternoon. Papers will be filed with the court on Wednesday, and we'll be all done in about 60 days! H is in a hurry all of a sudden. He must be getting some pressure. Maybe her D is final now or maybe she's pregnant...been thinking about that since mC's developments yesterday!!

Okay...I'm better now...thanks to Tawnya...she just told me that he must have been smarter before since he did choose to marry me! What a great friend she is!!! Love ya, Tawnya!!!

Hope everyone has a great weekend planned. I'm getting a manicure and pedicure. I'm helping throw a baby shower. I'm attending a new Sunday School class for single parents under the age of 45. AND, I'm shopping for green shoes and a new handbag!!!

Hugs and love to all!!!

Amy