Haven't been commenting but following along. Just wanted to say that I have seen a difference between the way you were and how you have been affected recently. My input is just that I would like to see you be the way you have been without your BF and make sure you bring that part with you into the R rebuilding. Whatever, happens then, you will be good. He really tears you up, not good. Look to keep the new you while reconnecting. If he screws that up - that's on him.
