Letting go and taking a left off last laugh lane

[mishka422]

I'm so glad to hear your trip was such fun. Isn't it nice to put everyday stuff behind you and just live in the moment?

The friendship with your STBXH seems like it's very important to you. Can you define why? I'm curious at what level you feel the connection now. Is it just that shared past and shared language or are you still harboring romantic feelings? As long as it's just the shared past, like all other friends, then the friendship can be safe for you. If there is even a small romantic feeling left for him, you could be doing further damage to yourself. Please, protect yourself. I understand the pull to the familiar, just make sure you don't get too close so that your heart can be further broken, however unintentionally.