I'm here........

[SueS]

Hi Everyone-

It's been a few weeks since I've been on. D4 is now officially D5!! We had a party for her on Saturday and she had such a blast.

I spent a week after H came home in almost complete silence. H barely said anything to me for a whole week when he got back on the 15th of March. I was fed up by the end of the week and ended up packing a bag & heading to a friend's for the weekend to help her celebrate her 40th birthday. It was a last minute deal and H was surprised by it. Sure enough, the following week, he was talkative and we even went out for dinner twice and went shopping for D5's birthday present together. H was good over the weekend while my family was here, but has gotten quiet again.

I got a call from OW's H. We both feel as if we're just waiting for the other shoe to drop....feeling like them telling us it was over was a lie. We know they've been in contact, but in talking to him, have found very few instances when they might have had an opportunity to see each other. Still, that doesn't really matter to me if my H is still pouring out his heart and telling another woman that he loves her. Can't prove it, just a feeling. Those feelings are unfortunately usually right.

H's DUI case is over. I feel like it did nothing to jar him into reality. He came home from court on Monday and proceeded to have a couple of glasses of wine. This after having just gone through his trial and talking with a probation officer. I asked what the outcome was. Guilty. This next part just kills me.... He has 1-year probation, but never has to meet with anyone. He was told to abstain for 1 year from drinking alcohol or using any illegal substances, but he doesn't have to be tested. He has to attend 1 chemical abuse class and 1 meeting of a victims panel of some sort. Other than a fine....that's it!!! I wanted to take D5 to the circus on Saturday but H didn't want to go with us. Later he said, well I have to go to those stupid classes anyway. He feels they are a waste of time & money. I told him that he needs to admit that he's extremely lucky that he's never been caught before. I gave him a couple of examples and said that I had many more. He got angry and told me that he didn't want to hear it. I said, fine H, but you and I both know full well that this has been an issue for you and for our marriage. He just stared at the tv.

I got my butt up and worked out this morning for the first time in 2 weeks. I start my running class in less than 2 weeks. I'm very excited about that. The friend I was going to take the class with may be moving so she hasn't signed up yet. I'm still anxious to get started.

My niece is doing well. She was here over the weekend for D5's birthday. She wants to move here with me. She loves her family, but said that too much has happened back home due to the accident and all of her issues. She wants a new start. I'd love to have her but now isn't really a good time for me and it would be very hard on my sister.

Well, I should get busy again. Work is almost done and I have a few things left to finish up.

Thanks for listening....as always.

SueS