Fresh Start

[QuietTime]

Hi girls,

I am doing well today. I had an interesting conversation with D5 the other night. We were driving to her skating canival and it was so innocent on her part.

She said, "Mommy our school must get their computers at daddy's store." I said why do they have "storename" on them? she says, no Dell. So I said well how do you know they are from daddy's store? And she says the computers had dell on them at his store last week. So I asked when she was there and she said when we went to get the groceries for dinner the day you came over and daddy cooked when I was sick, we went to his work. - daddy's work is in another town, OW works at the same store as daddy next to the grocery store in our town.

So I asked her did you go by the movie store? And she said yes, daddy had to talk to his friends, and I asked if she talked to them and she said I don't know who they were but they were 2 girls.

Why is this relevant? Just that it further proves H still has no capacity to be honest and is still obviously talking to OW at the very least. When I asked him about it he said oh that was last summer...

D5 is a very smart girl, she knows the difference between last month and last summer.

What really bothers me the most is that I feel so sorry for him because he is so down about how he "screwed things up" but he is still lying.

I got a call from the PAR program today, it is the 16 week probation madated program H is going to for people that have been abusive in relationships. They offered me free counselling so I decided to take them up on it. I did explain to them while I really didnt feel that I was physically abused to the extent many people are I did read the overview and did feel I had been abused in other forms, isolation, intimidation, with holding of finances, threats, distruction of property.

I joined a website called meetup.com and it has social things to do in the community, one of the groups is affiliated with parents without partners, and seems to have lots of stuff going on, I am going to a pot luck Easter egg hunt on Saturday. Should be fun!