Even though I have nothing to really share about my sitch at this time, I continue to float around because I still care about many of you.

I'm glad you feel better about getting it out, though I'm not sure what good it would do should you decide to send it. I understand how it would be good for YOU, but the reaction/response you *might* receive may not.

You've got everything going for you, sweets. Your intelligence, your career, your life....everything....

Perhaps holding on to the backpack drudged up some old feelings of what you once held on to before - belief and hope for your M? Then after hearing the latest, those old feelings were crushed yet again, sort of?

It's ok to remember all the good things you were devoted to - you can hold your head up high because of that and many other reasons, undoubtedly, and IMHO, that's all the affirmation you or anyone else really needs - the belief you have in yourself.

(((((Michelle)))))

Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell