He's here.. he invited himseldf here for dinner.. luckyu I had washed my haur earlkier.. sh*tting myuself! He looks tired and is nervours, hugged me for ages !
eek. Report later.
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
HOLY COW!!!! WTH????? He just showed up on your doorstep without prior warning? I'm going to have a heart attack until I hear what the heck he did that for.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
Hey girls.. Cyrena.. I asked him again about the present, he said AGAIN, did you like it? have you got that already? I really trued to think of music you would like.. I hoped you would like it.. I am glad you liked it and got it on time.. so.. I guess whatever his reason for doing it was, the effect on me was important to him.
Ok so I'm pretty shocked, so this is a ramble but..
So that was very very wierd.. basically, it was EXACTLY like a year ago.. when he first started inviting himself over to my house last Feb/March, before we started to get close again, like the last year hadnt happened!! It was like that episode in Dallas when Bobby stepped outta the shower. He looked very nervous at first and was stammering and stuff and was tired and faux yawning (a nervous thing). I made us a light dinner and we chatted and went for a bit of a walk.. I was a little bit quiet, but generally pretty relaxed and smiling and calm and putting HIM at ease. We listened to some music and did the paperwork (took 2 mins).
Signifiacnt things.. he asked about my Mum ad Dad.. never done that before (guilt) and my sis, my BFF, my Auntie, Uncle, other BFF, my job, college, my BMF at college.. all the things he never asked me about. I told him I am going to move out of here as I cant afford it and he looked very upset and worried and like he wanted to say something or basically, like I was HIS problem, that he should solve it, hard to explain, but NOT like we were apart. Very wierd !!! I told him I went to our house at home and its immaculate and he was VERY happy and said he was glad and relieved and .. wierd! Like we are not apart!
He hugged me for ages when he got here.. the fact he did that, and came to my house and for dinner makes me suspicious they have broken up...BUT more so because...
he invited me out tommorow night !!! He said it 4 times, quite casually at first, so, are you going out with Cher then tommorow? So you'll be out in town tommorow then, we will meet up with you..so you think you will go then? and then at the door again, ok, see you tommorow night then..I was so shocked at first, I was pretty vague, uh, maybe, not sure.. but as he kept asking, I twigged he was inviting me! So I have texted Cher and we are all set for tommorow night and I am staying at her house.
But Cher knew I think.. she was emailing me today, saying I think you will be happy when he phones you later.. and that ex had asked G to go out in town tommorow night for a 'boys night out' - his brother is coming to stay. Then later said to me, maybe he will invite you! So.. she must have known, it was planned between them all.
So he is going out with G, his friend from work J, who I get on well with, his other mate from work who he lives with in the shared house and his brother is coming to stay...and he has invited ME out too! on a Friday night!...theres no way he would do that, surely, if he was still with Helen?! He couldnt say that though could he.. oh hi Al, nice to see you after 4 months, you coming out tommorow? oh and by the way, I have finished with Helen... But surely he must have? I will find out tommorow, no doubt
This all sounds pretty childish hey (I am nearly 40!!!!!) but then, he had that look in his eye like a year ago.. there were things he clearly was afraid to say.. so much behind his eyes.
It was odd seeing him, it was a little awkward to be honest, but it got easier as time went on. I think we are a little disconnected from one another..but he smelt lovely! I do feel pretty detached though, sadly, he has nearly pushed me TOO far. The present, but then not calling or seeing me for so long was too much to bear.
I have to say, I am not sure how I feel about all of this.. and I was thinking of my Piscean ex today.. and DAMNIT !!!!!!!!! I knew this would happen, I was told it would go this way.
oh men are like buses then. Silly me I had the wrong man !!!!
Guess you will see what happens tomorrow, you would think he would have rather told you he and Helen had split up whilst you were alone not wait til your out on the town with mates. He is a strange one thats for sure.
