WAW New life with OM #2

[ppenton]

As I was walking last night, thinking and praying, I realized that the LBSs can look at their sitch as sort of a gift - a introspective of what they can do to make themselves better. It's a time we can learn from ourselves and our R and grow all the while the WAS is still making the same mistakes in their new R as they may not have learned from the failed M or R with us LBSs.

I think I'm moving much closer to realizing W may have given me a gift as I really release my anger and forgive her (and myself for my role in the death of our M) which will help me move on more fully. I'm thankful to have my children with me all the time as she doesn't have room for them at her new place. Nor do I want them around OM if at all possible. I seem to have more time at home now too and not sure why or how as I'm doing so much more with the kids and the chores around the house. I like the changes that I made in the home and the small changes which I find in myself. Every week that passes I get more confident and build my self-esteem back up so I can tackle any issue that arises at work or at home. I'm not ready to thank my W just yet, however, I think one day in the future I may as this wakeup call has me really looking inside of myself and I can see myself growing more everyday.

Well, onto IC and then to S15's game this afternoon