Lisa, I dont know if I will able to log on tonight. H is here and I dont know if he is leaving...
Funny, when we are in the same room with no kids, even now that we are both calm, we have nothing to say to each other. It bothers me a lot and I am to blame for that as well cause I dont feel like sharing my life with him. I dont know if we are piecing or what, but whatever it is we are doing, it leaves me lacking as FG used to say. When he is away, it's better, because I dont have to face the reality of how detached we both are. He must feel the same way too. God I need to be in a good relationship so bad!!! I know people here say, wait , wait and wait some more but I am not like that. I feel ready if you know what I mean.
My kids on the other hand are super happy to have him here.
Did a lot of work today at the office. I am thinking of changing departments and I am trying to make a good impression on a few people. Tomorrow will be a cruicial day for my "plan"...
Ohh, and after gaining 1,5 kilos eating healthy, today the scale said 1 kilo less. I have a goal for 5 kilos to the end of May and 2-3 by April 19 when is our Easter.
Other than that, I liked what I read somewhere :Dreams are a heart's wish... K
