Pup- No this definately is not what I want for them, at all. I struggle with this all the time. The only thing good that came out last night is that they were both in bed fast asleep to hear any of it. But I know children sense tension.
Hope- Back at you
Sara- As always, you are right. That is exactly what he is. No question about it. There is no middle ground and I hate it. He flies off the handle for no reason, and then is nice as pie. It exhausting to put up with, no to mention to figure out. He likes making empty threats , I guess it makes him feel he has the upper hand.
Nc.. yes I believe his is insecure within himself, therefore takes it out on me to make himself feel better. Its a crappy azz way to live let me tell you.
It just isn't in my personality to give up, im a fighter, especially since my boys are here. I can't do that to them. On the other hand, maybe it would be better if we weren't togeather. I don't know. I guess I can say, it could be worse, we don't fight everyday, but when its bad its really bad, when its good, its really good. Do you understand what I mean.
the good reels me back in to stick it out.. its a vicious cycle that seems to never end.
He did call me, which I knew he would, actually like usual, like nothing happend.. it drives me nuts. I spoke factually (about work) and then said goodbye. Knowone in this world can bring out the bad in me like he can.
Im going to venture out today, to clear my head.S6 has tee ball on saturday, need to buy him a mit. Last night a girl called him, YUP I couldn't beleive it.. he's only 6 for goodness sake, but he's a love
Thanks again guys.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
