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SMW,

I just caught up on your post. Air craft carriers are amazing. I have had the opportunity to tour one before. It was decommisioned at the time so it was spooky as they were prepping to bury it at sea. So empty, dark, unfurbished...USS Independence. I toured it with a friend of ours that served on it during Vietnam... it is here near where we live and he was out visiting us and Hubby got some strings pulled for us to visit us. I would spend most of my time lost on those things.

I have been on several carriers. My dad and stepdad retired from the Navy as well. as a matter of fact, my sister was christened aboard the Kennedy the day the ship was christened. Kind of cool! I agree about getting lost aboard the ship, but I do love walking around on them. I can not imagine an empty, quiet ship--that would be spooky!

Anyway, I read your latest post and want to encourage your faith and stand.... your H's world has not changed because he has been stuck in ground hog day for the past 7? months.... he has not had the opportunity to see any thing different in his world. Your journey is really just beginning because you have changed, you are new and it will be seen by him.

Crap! And i was hoping I would be getting somewhere in my sitch by now! J/K I think this is what Ian was getting at back in the fall at the start of the deployment--that it was a great opportunity for me. I foolishly thought that DH might tackle it the same way, but really--why should he? He did not have to make any decisions, change anything, since he thinks his world is perfect right now. I just hope it will not be like starting all over again.

I don't know if I ever told you but my SIL ... remember I am from south Fl.... gets to go see Bob and Charlene every other Monday..... She has been standing for 3 years. She calls me on her drive down there on Mondays and we catch up then usually. They are the real deal. She has had the opportunity to have dinner with them on several occasions and if you ever see them reference a Mike that's about her H. That is my H brother.

That is so awesome! I would love to go to Pompano Beach one time for a Monday night meeting, but do not see that in the near future.

Your words or starting to sound so much like hers...

Is that good or bad?

I am the only one of our side of the family that gets it. I so pray that at some point our family will see the value of both of our standings and ironically, if she had not been going thru this before me ..... I would have thrown in the towel on the first bomb immediatley because that's what I knew.

And look at you now--piecing and whatnot! Good for you for not giving up when it would have been so easy to do it! Does your husband support her decision to stand, too?

What I am trying to say is...because people see her and you doing this... you effect so many and you don't even know it. God's light is surely shining thru you upon others.... it will shine upon your H as well.

Blessings

Thank you for this. I had a friend at church tell me that she has seen so much change in me, that I am not only a beautiful woman on the outside, but that I am beautiful on the inside. God gets all the glory for that. I could have easily become a bitter angry woman. I turned to the Lord for comfort and strength and he gave me that plus healing, unconditional love, and forgiveness. How could I do no less for my DH?

I am getting antsy--we are getting close to homecoming. I have many friends both ere and in RL that are praying for DH to have a Damascus Road experience on the pier. While that would be amazing, I have no expectations. Just having him have to start thinking would be good for me. Sine I got a hug when he left, I am confident I will get one at homecoming. His family is coming and my dad may be joining the kids and I if he is feeling well. My inlaws are being supportive. Actually, I think they are still living in denial and believing that DH will have an epiphany, too.

Please keep praying for my DH when you pray for your family. I know the Lord is working and I need to be patient. It has been over a year, but DH got a seven month break from dealing with the reality, so I guess I cannot count that for him. I am a few months ahead on the bell curve now.

Living God's blessings with grace and dignity~
SMW