Mine asked me out on a date Saturday night. She also wants to talk to me about what she discussed with the MC. I shudder when I hear that. I don't know what she said, but I can guess it was that she wants to move out and remain friends with benefits.
<sigh> I can't do that. Break if you must, but I can't be in that kind of relationship with my "wife". It would kill me to see her in the arms of another man. It really would. If we weren't married I'd have to get over it, right?
Anyway, it was odd. Tonight I made her favorite (we had the steaks anyway) Steak Oscar. I'm good
We'll see. I'm very very tired. I can't trust her. So I don't, but I suspect it shows in the way we interact.
I can't change it at this point. I'm not on eggshells anymore. If she wants to go away, I encourage it. I mean it.
Now she makes it a point to say goodnight. She makes excuses to talk to me via text or email. She is trying to connect and I'm in panic mode because I think she still wants to leave.
<sigh> I need to get my wits back about me. This is ridiculous. Well, ridiculous is an elephant flying a plane with his big round hands, but that's a different story
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
