And thank GOD he'll be off the phone bill. Decrease the interactions until you are more content and centered, do some "exercises" about turning it over to God, and letting GOD Keep it too...don't take it back from Him.
This is hard for you to "get" but honestly, you must. This is NOT ABOUT HIM...IT IS NOT ABOUT OW....IT IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND GOD & YOU AND GAL AND YOUR KIDS AND THEIR R'S WITH GOD, AND YOU GAL....
GAL is not about him at ALL....none of this is about your h anymore....it is ALL about you and your life and how you choose to live it. Be the author of your life. If your life were a book, who is writing yours? How is it going? How will the next chapter(s) go? Life is short, tomorrow is promised to no one. Don't let someone else write YOUR life's book. They won't write it for you...it'll be left blank while they stumble through their own. BE THE AUTHOR OF YOUR LIFE AND WRITE IT THE WAY YOU WANT IT TO BE AND GO... for now, there is a chance he'll never come back and therefore the sooner you move on the better. BUT there is also the chance that he might come back but guess what? YOUR behavioral choices are the same either way b/c the only possible likely way to "win" him back IF that is what's right for you, is by acting as if he is NOT coming back and you have to GAL so you can bring something to the table other than your neediness....make sense?
You are stronger than you know.
(( j ))
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
