Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
That is what is the most draining. I'm tired of the letters, faxes, emails, meetings, and missing work. I'm just ready for all that stuff to end. I will not however settle just to get it all over with. That won't happen.
I'm also ready for some direction. She has to see this through. That is fine. I'm ready to see it through too.
I have know idea what the future holds, I don't think I can say that I'm one hundred percent ready to shut the door. I refuse to sit still though and whatever happens from here on out happens.
The way I see it is this, and I don't ever talk about myself this way. She is the one taking the risk of losing a good husband and father and if the family lifestyle is just not for her, then so be it, neither am I.
