For the Guy with Kids and a WW 24

[hopeful4her]

Oh, I'm doing it. And I can't believe how much better I'm feeling about things.

Problem is that I consider myself unmarried now. Right or wrong.

I think to myself, "Am I doing this for DB purposes?"

I'm telling myself, "If I really don't want her back, then why NOT be friends?"

I really just dont' want any dealings with her at this point.

I'll figure things out eventually. You're right, incredibly hard.

Got two calls from her yesterday. Just as I was leaving work, she called and asked if I was still home. I told her I was just leaving. She tells me that D12 got caught in the rain and called her asking for some socks. She explained that she told D12 that she was trying to get S15 to school and get herself to work. I told her that I would call work and let them know I would be late. Then she back pedaled and said she would do it, don't worry about it.

I told her I would do it. I was already getting her socks. I told her to go to work, because she has been missing too much work.

Then she called me while I was on the way home. She was just getting off of work and asked if I could pick up D7, because whe was worried about traffic. I told her that I would turn around.

I was making it sound like I was not heading home, but she took it as I was almost home already.
"No, if your already almost home..."
"I'm already turning around."

Pick up my little beauty. She was excited to see me. Take her to the apartment and the wife is there already. Step inside, other kids come greet me, D7 playing with me at the door again.

Wife sits on her sofa, I'm playing with the dog. We start to ask D7 about homework and then the wife asks me to sit down.

"Sit down, close the door."

We get D7 started on homework. Other kids take turns coming in to mess around with me. D7 is playing with me, the dog is messing with me. I know the wife is watching us all.

And I know it gets to her somehow.

Catch a quiet moment and she asks me how work was. I tell her. I don't ellaborate, just give facts. She tries to give me some of her day, but I talk to D7 at the same time. She announces that she is going to heat up pizza rolls for dinner and finds it funny, so she laughs at herself.

We didn't laugh. I'm not giving her any of the old me. I begin my goodbyes. It took a while because I had to mess with D12 for a while because she was in a bad mood. I fixed that quickly. I'm good at that. Leaving, I give a last goodbye, glance over to the wife and give a quick "Bye". She says thanks for the help and I walk out.

First time in a couple months that I've done that.

Rescuing or just two parents working with each other?

I see it as more the latter. I could have called her a couple times last week myself, but I made sure to make other plans. I DO NOT want her help.

I am really enjoying life right now. I'm in a great place.