Sorry to hear of you being that down. I think it's to be expected though, don't you? Sounds like you do and sounds like now that you've blown off some of the pent up emotions, you're moving forward. Glad to hear it. You're a fighter, no question.
Something that I read in there disturbs me. The suicidal tendencies stand out. When somebody talks about stuff like that, it's usually a cry for help. Because people that mean it, do it. People that want help talk about it. Your H sounds like he is in between from that description. Depression. He may not know why he's depressed, but it sure sounds like depression to me given your description.
Any chance you can get him into a psych? If you're not seeing one yourself, you should be (or a counselor if you prefer to call them that) and ask them their opinion.
Any talk of suicide should be taken seriously in my opinion.
I think you did what you did because you let it build up for so long. I do not think you need to explain it to him more than you did. I'm not sure that a boundary is the thing to do for now either. I think SM is right that you need to get your strength elsewhere. It won't come from him. He's not capable right now.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
