Legally speaking, we have not ML since Aug 2008 and we have been separated since 9-15-08. She has had her own apartment since Jan 1. ON TOP OF ALL THAT, I had a vasectomy in Sep 2004. Definitely NOT MINE!!
Karen, emotionally it's a different day. I'm still holding together pretty well and I'm functional at work; except when I'm browsing through DB. Let's just say that this day was something that I had envisioned from time to time throughout my sitch; but actually having it happen, I was not prepared. But I'm being logical and I'm preparing myself for how I will deal with her when we finally talk. I want to have all my questions and thoughts prepared in advance.
The one thing I do realize is that I cannot change any of this; I must deal with it. God has always given me strength and I'm certain I'll have it now. But I pray for HER; she's not a strong person emotionally and I don't know what she's feeling at the moment. That's the scariest part; because I know I don't want any responsibility for her "love child." But because of emotionally instability I fear for what my kids will have to suffer through. They didn't ask for this; neither did I. But I have the cognitive and emotional maturity to handle it. I don't like; but I can handle it.
