Thank you so much for the warm welcome. I will definately check out the board you suggested. I have friends I talk to but no one that can relate so its nice to find people going through the same challenges.
He did tell me the other day he regreted what he did and I believe he does to a point. He does seem to be trying more with certain things and I do take that as small steps. I realized after reading DB everything matters no matter how small.
I was so hopeless this same time last week, but since I decided to forgive him and just try to move on from the hurt and anger and make myself happy, I have seen small improvements on his side too. Its hard to forgo your own feelings sometimes.
I have tried to get my H to go away for the weekend and the last time I asked he was willing, but then he had a big test that Monday and also something else came up so we never went. He was willing to go this time which before he totally dismissed the idea. So that was a plus.
I also mentioned the other night that I think it had been over a month that we had been to see the counselor and he said really, already. So I am not sure if he would be willing to go back yet but I didnt want to push the issue.
We do still live with my mom but unfortunately we are sorta stuck. We have too much debt to get our own place. I did create a budget for us to follow and my H seems to feel less burdened by our debt, which I believe is one of the issues in our M that bothers him. I think he feels like it is his doing and he cant get us out quickly enough. That is one thing I am trying to improve and are currently trying to find full time employment. Its been really rough though with the economy and it hasnt been easy having success. We have no kids.
