Stress, WAW and life in general II

[2gthrButApart]

I know exactly how you feel about the WTH should I keep putting up with this. I feel like that from time to time. But then I sit and think, and read what you write to me and it helps me to realize this is a fight, a fightis never easy. This is a test, perhaps to make you stronger for your W. She needs you, but doesn't realize it yet.

My H kept talking about how he Had to leave, yet he's still here. And I don't care what he says its not 100% b/c of the girls. Even if its 99% b/c of them, I still have that 1% of his heart.

I think when I had that D info printed up for him it took him by surprise, he was taken back by the fact that I looked up D info. The threat of D wasn't giving him 100% power anymore.

I took my ring off too. To hurt him in a way, one night after he said some really hurtfull things to me. But then one day while skimming thru threads on here I came across the topic of "should I wear my ring" and a post stood out to me. The woman said she kept it on b/c she and her H were in fact still Married. I almost cried. I ran home and dug my ring out and put it on. This was at 6:30pm. 8 pm that night as my H was leaving to the gym he was very excited abiut his new workout routine, and gave me a real heartfelt kiss. Perhaps it was a sign from God. Telling me not to give up. I think he keeps giving me lil' glimpses of hope so that I don't give up when I feel so frustrated and discouraged.

You feel the way you do about your W now b/c of all the emotions running thru you. Did you feel that way about her before the Bomb? You're not excited b/c you're weary of what's going to come next. What words will come out next. Will today be a huge fight. You have to get the whole "act as if" thing down. It helps tremendously.

You don't hang on her words anymore b/c 99% of what comes out her mouth is BS!!

Don't listen to her. LOL....

I helped put things into perspective for my H when I broke down what his living expenses would be, if he lives as a single man. Due to the one income he'd now be living on all of his bills would be doubled! Duh! But I think a light bulb went off in his head. Like damn, if I leave it won't be easier. It'll actually be harder.

But some people need to live through it to learn. My H is a numbers person, so it made him think. I don't know if that would work with your W, or she needs to experience it to truly see what it is to be single and have to do everything alone.

I think we should get some sleep LOL.


GN....I'll check on you in the AM. Dream good dreams. Try not to "think" before you go to bed.