I never envisioned the day I would be DBing while my H is in Iraq. I am supposed to be in TX right now and deploying to meet up with H this month. My replacement just arrived here in WA to take my spot so that I could move and be with my H. I am not sure where she will go now that I am staying in WA. I am still trying to cope, accept, and move on. It's very surreal at times. I still feel a huge sense of loss at times.
I try not to sit and dwell about our sitch but I am guilty of it at times. When I notice I am having a pity party, I dis-invite myself and kick myself out of it :-). I hope I am coping and grieving in a healthy fashion.
I am still amazed my H has coped so well but it is his decision to D and I believe he is stuffing down his emotions - which will definitely bite him later. He chooses to deal with things by moving on and never really deal with them. It works for him but I see the excess baggage he has accumulated over the years.
I hope a good night sleep with rest my mind and help me re-focus.
Me:28, first M H: 33, second M Married: 08/08 Bomb: 10/08 H filed D and deployed: 12/08 Served: 04/09 I deploy: 07/09 Hearing date: 08/09
