Mike, no drama intended. I didn't act like I was walking away... I just wasn't so sure this was for me anymore.
I can't find the capability in me to detach.
I'm hurt to the core. I've put a good fight with my emotions, but you can only be "rejected" for so long, and it gets to you...
I just don't know what to do.
I feel like I just need to calm down, do what worked before, and let it be for now... without expectation. I feel for H, as he can't express himself without going off the deep end. There's a fine line between numb, and irate, if there is any communication regarding us.
I can't be rejected forever.
It's not healthy. It's making me not healthy.
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
