Just so you know...

[bluerain]

I actually texted with him a lot yesterday. Its all started because our auto insurance policy is coming up to another billing cycle. I told him that I guess the reason I havent looked into my own policy is because the thought of us seperating even more just makes me so sad. He said him too. And that he wishes he could take it all back...

The long and short of the conversation is that he is very depressed. He told me that he misses me everyday, when our shows come on it makes him sad. I told him that I only want the best for him, and that I would have given anything to be the woman who would do that for him. He said "I only want the best for you too and I think that you deserve someone better than me, someone who wont hurt you so badly". I hate it when he says crap like this... I told him that hes going to have to forgive himself sometime. He said hes been trying. That was about it, we exchanged a few more messages, I told him that if he wants to talk later to get in touch. I havent talked to him today, I dont think I really would have much to say.

What I dont understand is this: If you really meant all you said yesterday, he actually said "Believe it or not, Ive been mourning our relationship for a few months now, Ive just been an emotional trainwreck" How can you still think that divorce is the solution? Is it because he thinks that it will be too hard to reconcile? Is he afraid to ask? I feel like I practically asked him myself... Beleive me, I understand being afraid to be rejected.

AUGH! MEN!!!