Got a call from H today. He was calling to ask about picking up the D papers and we got into a discussion about them. I won't bore you with the details - but he is frustrated I will not just pick them up. And I continue to validate his frutration and let him know there is a process in place to serve me but I will not contribute to the process by picking them up.
Yuck! He continues to tell me he doesn't want to married to me and wants to move with his life. He says he was foolish and mistaken by getting involved with me. I deal with it better than I used to but it still upsets me. I am trying to cope with the possiblity of a D happening. But I still believe in our M and our future. It's difficult.
Part of me thinks I'm crazy for believing in a M when my H says the things he does.... but it's hard to differentiate between the truth and lies from H. I am beyond knowing what to think and what to do.
Me:28, first M H: 33, second M Married: 08/08 Bomb: 10/08 H filed D and deployed: 12/08 Served: 04/09 I deploy: 07/09 Hearing date: 08/09
