A New Decade

[MsMelancoly]

On a side note, one other thing I asked my H was why did he think I didn't want to have kids? We had talked about having a child before we got married. He wanted them, I really didn't & we both would flip flop about it. And then, like many things in our R or M - he would always say whatever would make me happy. He pretty much said that until the day he left. A month before he left, I told him that I didn't want to have kids. Anyway back to my question, my H said because we don't have the money. I said, no because I'm afraid of being a single mother, I'm afraid of being abandoned. (as well as the money issue & the effect the guilt I would feel towards my pets). He looked at me and said the funny thing is, is if we would have had a child - I wouldn't have left. It is funny isn't it. Yet, I see on this board that a child cannot keep an M together.

Once again - lack of communication, as we both closed down and tried to hide.