Reaching out or "just friends"?

[mlh78]

Of course, he doesn't have the sense to not "sh$t where he eats"

I haven’t heard that phrase in a long time… hehehehe

Is he friends with his exes? Yes and no. He's friends with all of his former-gfs that he wasn’t very serious with. He’s only had 2 serious relationships (1 was with me). He and the “other serious xgf” that he dated before he and I ever dated are definitely not friends. Things with her didn't end well at all – she was unstable and was kind of a mess, actually. They dated off/on for about a year.

Despite all of my "I don't need him" rants to myself/friends/family, deep down, I think I have been hoping for a turnaround in our situation. I’ve had naive daydreams that we'd be the "couple that defied the odds and found our way back to each other."

Which is super weird, considering I don't know why I'd even want to reconcile with him. He isn’t the person I fell in love with and he actually disgusts me because I know so much of what he’s been up to this whole time… Perhaps it’s just a habit that I need to break. ;-)