Thanks you guys. Just nice to know that at least my "virtual" friends think better of me.
I am doing the paycheck burn-up again and it really has gotten old. At least the mortgage comes out of this one so that helps quite a bit. I do have a ton of things to improve and will cost more than I have but slowly, I will get there.
I wrote on someone else's thread that I started writing in my journal the positives that I want(yes, even snuck in flirt guy). Even though a couple of those things I wanted to clear up aren't happening the way I had hoped, they are happening. I am not sure if that is a be careful what you wish for type of thing or not. One things was to get out of debt(the B is dealing with that, save for the house) and get the house fixed up better(which is also happening due to the B, I have to spend funds and using them to fix some things like broken dishwashers, leaky pipes etc).
So there are a few positives out a huge negative. Thanks you guys for your kind appraisals, I certainly needed that boost right now.
hugs, kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory