I know, I know....I'm an idiot. I was getting really strong. But, this hurts. It hurts to watch him take everything from me and go off and have his happy new little family and leave me in the ruins of our M and our family. I told him that the love I once felt for him was almost gone because he made it very difficult to love him. But, stupid me...I still do. I still do. Damn it. I wish I didn't I wish I didn't.
Your not stupid. Our emotions make us do things that we can't explain, but its not stupid...its human. Cut yourself some slack. That being said, stop procrastinating and get yourself and K protected. Filing the paperwork has nothing and everything to do with love. It doesn't mean you love him any less, it means you LOVE K MORE and yourself. You are doing great. Keep it up. Everyone has those days, make today a better one and a more productive one for you and your sweet girl. Keep your chin up.
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
