So I was thinking that I since I'm trying to make changes and go NC for my well being and I'm struggling with it. I need to be accountable to someone. And who better to be accountable to than you guys. So my plan is to do my NC journal here. Please feel free to 2x4 me if necessary. I need to be held accountable and need all the help I can get.
Sun 3/29: H was suppose to leave at our investment property the $ from our rental on Sat. I went by and no $ was there. Contemplated over contacting him, but decided ah hell, I need my money. So I called H. Talked about money matters and the rental. Conversation was not as friendly as I would have liked - - got a bit confrontational. Need to work on being friendlier and happy when I do have to talk about business.
Mon 3/30: H called my job twice. I saw the missed call first time but didn't call back. Second call I answered. He called to ask why are we always fighting and he doesn't like that we fight so much. I think the call was triggered by me seeing H's friend yesterday to give him a t-shirt I bought from Cali. H's friend likes t-shirts so I decided to surprise him with one. Didn't bring one for H although I did buy some books for his son. H said that he plans on coming home but he knows it will be the same thing. He mentioned that I have problems too. I made mention that I don't want him to come home with me as his 2nd choice. I told him that grandfather (h's grandfather) told me that he said he has to see if things will work out with OW and him. He denied telling that to grandfather. I also asked him what do we always fight about. He said because he's not there at home and then I said when you were there what were we fighting about. Hint hint - OW!!! I also said that I know I haven't handled things the best either and I asked him what are my faults. He didn't answer, said I need to think about things. Bottom line: today its I'm coming home, tomorrow will be I'm not coming home. Whatever. I am still on NC quest for me. Will only contact about business. When he calls, I will answer sometimes. But will try my bestest to do this -- your support is needed as always. Thanks much.
