Everything is still great with me, the job is still great fun to go to every day, the weather (now and again) is getting better, S23 is a step closer to getting a job. My weekends are still fun filled and enjoyable.
Only fly in the oitment is MIL. She is in hospital today for test to sort out what the problem actually is. I'm hoping that W tells one of my boys and that they can tell me. I can't speak to MIL about it, as she hides the truth to save me from worrying!
On a side note, it was W's birthday on Saturday. First time in 26 years that she hasn't got a card from me. Couldn't bring myself to buy one, wouldn't have been right or meaningful. I feel fine with that though. I have noticed also that on the friends reunited website (find old school mates in the UK) her profile has changed from seperated to single at some point last week. That maybe because of her 'snooping'.
She checked out my page in the alt by setting up her own, adding S23 as a friend so she could see what I was saying (my profile on there is private, but S23 was talking to my new 'friend' on his page). I think she probably found more than she was looking for as her own page was deleted a day later and her status on the ols schools one changed. (I don't look at it, but the site emails me on friends updates, so I received a mail about it).
A large part of me feels good that she is looking and finding out and maybe regretting things (vengeance), another part is sad that she just doesn't ask me (I would be honest as always and tell her). Whatever is going on though, I am now at a point where I would NOT have her back in my life anymore. She has said and done things so far this year to kill off any remaining love that I had for her. She is, to me, just the mother of my sons.
It's a place I never ever thought I would get to, or be happy to be in. I have and am though, and I am thankful to my friends on here and the support and techniques for self discovery that I have received from here and other places.
To anyone else reading this, who is maybe just embarking on the journey...never say never. Follow your insincts, but whatever happens, be true to yourself.
