Glad to hear you are ok, getting the support, and having options. Having choices always makes the picture brighter and allows you to clear your head and see what feels right for you. You are not stuck - just in a difficult R and having to sort out the normal from the abnormal.
I am glad you got the break! A well needed one at that! Don't need to talk about anything unless you want to. Just use your support and don't worry about anyone else right now.